I Realize

I’ve always tried too hard

And you Sat along the wall

And watched me dance the part

I struggled with the rhythm

But I kept with your routine

Still it’s not in me tonight

For me kiss him goodnight

While my lips still remember yours

That whole scene just makes me nervous

 

True I am not built to love any less

And from up above the skyline

Sitting behind the glass

I am fine

Well as fine as one can be

Without a sounding of the beat

From each moment that

 

moved me, moved me

that moved me

moves me, moves me

 

I wanted you to understand

to be far enough to challenge

but close enough to have

and now I am horribly sad

that the only shot I had at it

is all I’ll ever have

 

I am not the fine china

laid out on Christmas eve

happy to be passed around for everyone to see

and I am not the obvious to most

I’ve have held only a few

And those I have kept close

 

And so a toast to the new year

And the abandonment of good and bad

And to all that has lead us here

And to the lessons I will raise my glass

As far as being bitter goes

I will just let it pass

 

Feel free to move around

Less afraid of others shadows

And more aware of my own

Redesign the space that I am in

Moving at the city’s pace

But taking time to breathe it in

And remembering

and remembering 

and remembering